Here I am after so many years to write all the hurt again. Once more it is about you, for the past 45 months my life revolved around you, amazing it was. After 45 months of togetherness, increased maturity, and immense love, here I am living our 'oh-so expected break up'; it had to happen, now or later, it had to!

I don't blame you or anyone, this was decided way before we were together.However, it is hard to accept it, to live without you everyday baby. But as every great human beings say, one has to move on.

LIFE CONTINUES AND THIS ALL WILL BE MEMORIES SOON.

I have always written about the hurt, well our 45 months was definitely full of ups and downs same as every relationships on earth.We built on memories, we conquered our fears, we supported each other through our bad times and shared our good ones. Yes, I do cry for you everyday, it hurts and sometimes it soothes.  I do know this is only for a very short period and soon this phase will be over.I fight my own demons so as not to bring you back, bring us back how we were before, trust me this is not an easy work. 

Yet, what gives me the utmost courage to leave you where you are is the way you have managed to settle with the thought of not being my dearest bf. As you said you managed 'to condition yourself' leaves me perplexed and definitely heart broken. But I can say this is definitely for our good. 

45 months, I am grateful you made me the person I am today. 

I just pray that soon, I will also be able to settle down with the thought of seeing you with someone else.

I love you A. (Well I hope this is only for the time being)

cries...

Ohh cries after so long :/ as if we needed that, NOW, at this point of our relationship :/ I wonder why I do things, unknowingly, which end in hurting you :/ We do not deserve that :/ I should be talking to you. NOW :/
Normally. at this point of time, I should be fighting for you to listen to what I want to say, clarifying the issues we have. I want to sort it out :/ And the way you said do not spoil your mood :o Oh god :/ It was as if mine does not matter :/ Cries, I thought all these made me stronger. But wrong :/ I am still weak :/ I prefer pouring words on that blog where you won't get access to rather than talking to you :/ All I can do is cry... :/

OVER !

Insensitivity --'

I hate your insensitive attitude, I don't know what exactly you feel :/ Sharing of our feelings is the key to the success of a relationship :s don't feel afraid, I won't judge you :o Everyone has his flaws as well as his own convictions :) What you think right, might be a neutral thought for me :o Should I let that distance ourselves ? NO! I'm too strong and I will fight this :D (Y)

Us/Her - You/I

I'm afraid to lose you, even though I know that you complete HER :( I feel happiness when you say you met her, there is this sparkle in your eyes that I haven't seen in a while :s I feel being so selfish despite knowing that we can't be together, I force upon you to stay :s Maybe i'm overstressing myself for nothing ^^' maybe there's nothing of this happening :o I love you far much to let you go <3

# If you don’t clear your misunderstanding in time they become the reason for distance forever.

WHY ??

Why are you inciting me to FIGHT ? Why are you happy, when i'm killing our relationship? Why are you doing all these ? Do you want to get over with us? I feel like crying over whatever I say to you :( I feel like drowning in my own words :'( I cannot withstand this :( Please stop ! :(